I must really love her

Oh Kylie....This week has been a long one. To start, we have entered separation anxiety. I didn't experience it with Kaitlyn so I don't quite understand how to deal with it. I never leave my kids so if I drop them off somewhere I must really want the time away, ie gym, mops, date night. If I so much as hand her to a relative she doesn't remember, she wails. How do I explain to my grandma that Kylie doesn't want her to hold her? Heck, my grandma just finally remembered her name!(sort of... Kaylie is close enough! Its only been 10 months) So while we have been dealing with that, I have been deathly ill all week, thanks to Kylie. On Tuesday night I tried to nurse her 15 minutes early so I could go to bible study on time. Well, it was not on her schedule so she didn't really eat but I decided too bad and went on. The next morning I woke up with a really bad clogged duct. (Stop reading now if you don't want to hear about breastfeeding.) I nursed, pumped, took motrin and a heat compress and it still hurt. I figured that I would just go to the gym and forget about it. Uh oh! So I got home and just felt whipped. By noon, I was on the couch with a pounding headache. I put the kids down early and spent the day on the couch. By three, I had chills and couldn't open my eyes. I finally pried myself off the couch to go to Aaron's birthday party. Made it home and went straight to bed with a blinding headache, chills, and that stupid clogged duct still hadn't cleared up. The next morning I woke groggy but manage to make it until about 3:00. On the couch, two layers of clothes and a huge, heavy blanket! I had the chills so bad I didn't even want to go to the bathroom. I called my mom to take care of the kids because there was just no way I could. I had a fever of over 102 and the same blinding headache and clogged duct. At one point Thursday night I was afraid I may have to go to the emergency room. I don't think my words can describe how sick I was. Thank God for the internet and my library of parenting book- Mastitis. I really don't wish it on anyone. So for you Kylie- I have endured spasms and mastitis. At least you are cute!